The testing begins...

We are not getting that brown house that it posted in the pics below! We did however look at a beautiful house that is much closer to family and that is a rent to own. The house is perfect and we really like it it has everything that both of us wants. BUT, we may be running into some issues with the seller. We saw this house on a site as a rent to own for a certain price. When we talked to the realtor she said that price was way too high for us to pay per month and said it should be about $400 less. When she spoke with the seller he wanted to rent it to us for $300 more than originally listed. This may get sticky now. The realtor told him he was crazy as that was WAY to high for the market right now. He fought a bit so we are not really sure what he is thinking. We really want this house, but I don't want to be pressured into something again. I feel like this is our house, and am hoping and having faith it will all work out. Just as the other house fell through I knew if it did then God would provide something even better and he has. I really think this is where we belong, but maybe I am just blinded by the house! Who knows. So I am just having faith that it will all work out however that may be. It's hard to say that though. We are definitely excited to get this house and want it badly so if it doesn't work out we will be very disappointed. It's hard to trust in situations like this!!! I just so hope this works out for us!!! HOPEFULLY! We shall see! I will keep you posted.

Lord help me to remember if not this one then there will be something better!!!!

2 strikes left....

We are not getting that new house that we wanted. Phil and I have been talking and the more we talk about it the less we like the people selling it. They listed the property as a rent to own, but they are putting major pressure on us to buy this house in 6 months. If we don't they are raising the rent $400 a month! That's alot of money. And we may not be able to do that if this house here hasn't sold. I think they really just want someone to come in and buy it and that being the case it should not have been listed as a rent to own.

We do however have an appointment to look at a house this weekend. It is smaller than the house we are in but it does have 8 acres which is really important to Phil. We can always add onto the house as we will be paying much less for it. I actually have some pics of it. Now mind you it's nothing spectacular but the location is. It will be our little log cabin in the woods. And oh yah...no pressure to purchase. We can take our time and do it when we are ready.

http://www.noseworthyrealestate.com/picture%20pages/2645248pictures.htm

11 months old....so cute!

Shoot I missed it..........

I so wished I had my video camera today when I went to get Ethan from his nap. He was fussing a bit and I was in the middle of something so Emma said she would go up there and talk to him like she does often. So when I was done I went up there to get him, and there was Emma sitting on his little Giraffe rocker with her battery operated keyboard, banging away on the keys and singing all the while Ethan is dancing and laughing in his crib. It was so cute! But of course I had to say "I'm coming" as I walked upstairs and ruined it all! UGH! Hopefully they'll do it again so I can catch it! :(

Somes things I've learned but haven't mastered all of them yet.

I've learned
that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved.
The rest is up to them.

I've learned
that no matter how much I care,
some people just don't care back.

I've learned
that it takes years to build up trust,
and only seconds to destroy it.

I've learned
that its not what you have in your life
but who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned
that you can get by on charm for about 15 minutes.
After that, you'd better know something

I've learned
that its not what happens to people that's improtant.
It's what they do about it.

I've learned
that you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.

I've learned
that no matter how thin you slice it,
there are always two sides.

I've learned
that its taking me a long time to
become the person I want to be.

I've learned
that it's a lot easier to react that it is to think

I've learned
that you should always leave loved
one with loving words. It may be
the last time you see them.

I've learned
that we are responsible for what we do,
no matter how we feel

I've learned
that either you control your attitude
or it controls you.

I've learned
that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first,
the passion fades and there had better be something else to
take its place.

I've learned
that heros are the people who do what has to be
done when it needs to be done,
regardless of the consequences.

I've learned
that learning to forgive takes practice

I've learned
that true friendship continues to grow,
even over the longest distanace.

I've learned
no matter how bad your heart is
broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief

I've learned
that our background and circumstances may have
influenced who we are, but we are responsible
for who we become.

I've learned
that no matter how you try to protect your kids,
they will eventually get hurt and you will hurt in the process.

I've learned
that there are many ways of falling and staying in love.

I've learned
that although the word "love" can have different meanings,
it loses value when overly used.

Babies

I know I have said this before but it still always amazes me at how in tune young children are. Specifically babies. They know when people aren't right. They sense some sort of imbalance or upset in a person's spirit and in turn it makes them very leary. They become apprehensive and clingy. Somehow as we age, we loose this, or rather ignore that feeling. We know when something doesn't feel right, but for some reason we choose to give people the benefit of the doubt. It just so amazing how a little being who can't even communicate verbally knows. If only we paid attention to that voice more.

11 months

Ethan is officially 11 months old today. He certainly gave me an awful night last night. I was so exhausted yesterday cause Phil had to leave here at 4:30 am to catch a flight. He was looking for something and I woke up and could not get back to sleep. Then at 5:30 Ethan woke up! So I had to be up anyway. The day just dragged on. I looked at the clock at 9 and I have already been up for 5 hours but it was only 9am! UGH! So I was hoping to get to bed at a decent time. But then my in-laws called and wanted to come see the kids. They didn't get here until 5:30 (kids usually go to bed at 6:30 and 7:00) and they did not leave until 8:30 pm. Needless to say they weren't in bed on time. So I tried to go to sleep and noises kept disturbing me and freaking me out so I couldn't . Then at 11:30 just as I dozed off lo an behold cries from upstairs. Ethan was up. So I brought him with me to sleep......BAD IDEA. I wish I had kids that would just cuddle up and sleep. Both of them are so active even while sleeping, they are constantly lifting their heads looking around, changing postitions etc. I tolerated it for about an hour and tried to put him back to bed. NO LUCK. So then I put him in one of his baby seats with a bottle. He sucked back the bottle and then thought it was play time! Needless to say he never went back to bed and maybe dozed off for an hour or two and then Emma was up at 7:00 am. So again, we did not sleep. School was canceled today and we are all cranky from not getting enough sleep. This should be an interesting day!