So excited!

I am so excited and cannot wait until September! Not only because my baby girl will be starting school, but because I am going on vacation with one of my friends, which I have never done in my whole life....even before I had kids!!!! I haven't seen her in 6 yrs and I was talking to her the other day on Yahoo chat, and we were saying how we should meet halfway somewhere. That sent the wheels spinning and I started looked around for things to do. I discovered that there was a Women of Faith conference going on and we could either go to North Carolina the end of October(missing Halloween and her son's 10th b-day) or to Atlanta the end of September. She was up for it! Either way I would be flying and she lives 1 1/2 hours away from Atlanta so we decided that Atlanta would be the best choice! It's actually costing me less to fly to Atlanta and it is a direct flight which is always nice!!!

I am so excited to go to the conference I have always wanted to go but haven't known anyone who wanted to go as well!

I am super excited to see my friend. It has been so long! Our husbands were on the same boat in the Navy and we lived on the same street so we got really close during underways! She is like my sister!!! It's great finding friends when you least expect to find them. I am so excited! I know, I know I have used that word a lot, but what can I say I AM EXCITED!!!!!

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Kids say the darndest things!

Today was my 28th birthday! YIPPEE! Emma woke up this morning and said "happy birthday mommy, how many are you? 68?"

I may feel 68 sometimes, but I am far from that. Either that or I am one SMOKING 68 year old! haha!

Also the other night as she was going to bed she says "good night mommy, I love you." Sweet right? You haven't heard the rest....."oh and by the way you were a little cranky today!" Such brutal honesty! In some ways I hope that sticks with her....though she could work on her delivery!

Canceled again.

The showing was canceled! I get a call at 5pm saying they can't make it. So basically I sat here all day making the house pristine....waiting to go food shopping until this evening with both kids....just to find out that the showing was canceled. And guess what? I still had to go out because I haven't been food shopping in almost a month! I would rather not take both kids with me when I go, but I don't mind doing it if I can get it in in the late morning/early afternoon NOT BEDTIME! The whole day wasted! Now it's 9 o'clock and I still have groceries to put away. Guess I better stop whining and take care of them!! LOL!

Nervous

Ok, I have to admit I am sick of this we are moving we aren't moving crap. My emotions can't handle the stress. Part of me just wants to give up and say screw it we'll wait until the economy is better. We hadn't had any showings in a while, and then I get a call today to show the house at 6:30. It's fine, but honestly I am so sick of this. I prepare the house so it is perfect, lug two kids out usually at bed time (the time people most want to look), try to kill time by going out to eat or unnecessary shopping at Wal-mart only to discover they want another bathroom, or they want a basement, or a garage. All things we don't have. We have lowered the price on the house but honestly at this point we almost need to get our asking price to break even and pay the 6% commission to the Realtor. I am sick of last minute showings. I am sick of not knowing. I am sick of all of it. It's been 4 months now. Then if it does sell I am worried about being able to afford a house in New England since it costs alot more than here. We can't even get a starter house for under $200,000 and that's one that needs work.

So I was sitting here today after I got the phone call and I was venting to God. Venting about the stress, about not knowing, about how I wasn't sure we would be able to afford a house out there and then I get and email. It was from our local Christian music station and they email me a scripture verse everyday. Usually it is in my box when I get up, but today it was late. And this is what it said......

Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.

~ Proverbs 3:5, NLT

That was definitely speaking right to me. I don't know what the future holds but God does. It's not up to me or Phil to take care of us, it's God's. And it will all work out either way.

Sad but Sweet

On Father's Day weekend we went to a place called the Genessee County Museum. It's a little village made with old houses, and churches from all over the state from the 1700's-early 1900's. You walk into this museum and it's like stepping back in time. They give live demonstrations of cooking over fire, how to punch tin etc. We had a really good time there, and Emma really enjoyed being there.

As we were leaving I saw the saddest, but sweetest thing I have seen in my whole life. There was a little old man walking out of the museum alone. I noticed him because he went to open his car and accidentally pushed the wrong button and opened his trunk, rather than his doors. He shut his truck and proceeded to get into the car. As I stood there and watched him back away, I noticed the passenger seat. It was empty, except for a framed picture of his beautiful wife strapped to the seat.

Come on people....let's help

Please, please please if you have anything that you can donate your help is very much needed and appreciated! Can I just say that since this was posted this morning, God has provided him with $3210! AMAZING! If you can help in anyway, please do, even if it's only $10!! This young man is doing a great thing. You don't see to many teenagers these days doing something good with their life!!! So if you can help...please do. Let's try to make this happen for him!!!! We have 7 hours before he leaves and that is the cutoff for donations.....

THANK YOU!!!

Here's a link to Teen Missions donation website page.

https://dlq4.donatelinq.net/donatelinq4/Donation.aspx?MerchantID=teenmissionsorg

First you put in all your information, because of course it's tax deductible and they'll send you a year-end statement. In the middle of the page there is a drop down box under the title "Categories and Funds."

Choose the option "Team Member" and then put Robert Krasawski III in the comment box.

You then can choose Electronic check or Credit card.

Obviously, don't click either of the options of "later date, or recurring transaction"--just leave those blank.


BE SURE TO PUT HIS NAME IN THE COMMENT BOX SO THAT HE GETS CREDIT!!!!!

Please help

A friend on mine has a son who is going on a mission trip tomorrow (june 21st). He needs help raising money for this trip. Normally this wouldn't be such a big deal, but he made the decision to go just last night and is relying on God to provide the money for his trip. They need to raise almost $4000 in 36 hours. Time is running out. There are only 9 hours left before he leaves and he needs to have every penny in hand before then!!! Please pray about it, and see where the Lord leads you. If you can help please go here : Here's a link to Teen Missions donation website page.

https://dlq4.donatelinq.net/donatelinq4/Donation.aspx?MerchantID=teenmissionsorg to donate.

Please follow these instructions:

First you put in all your information, because of course it's tax deductible and they'll send you a year-end statement. In the middle of the page there is a drop down box under the title "Categories and Funds."

Choose the option "Team Member" and then put Robert Krasawski III in the comment box.

You then can choose Electronic check or Credit card.

Obviously, don't click either of the options of "later date, or recurring transaction"--just leave those blank.

PLEASE BE SURE TO PUT HIS NAME IN THE COMMENTS SECTION SO THAT THE MONEY GOES TO HIM!!! THANKS SO MUCH FOR ANY HELP YOU CAN GIVE!!!!!

Mushy

It's official. I am loosing control of all my emotions. I cannot believe my baby, my first sweet little baby girl is 5! I know she's been 5 for quite some time now but it never sunk in until now that SHE IS 5!

She graduated preschool on Wednesday and I just wanted to loose it. Phil and I were both teary eyed the whole time. Poor girl is in for waterworks when she is old enough to get married! I just can't help it though. Where did the time go? How the heck is she 5?

She won the award for "the most caring" person in her class! This is so true. She has such a big heart. She really does ask questions about all her family(extended) all the time. If you are upset, she is the first one to comfort you. She is such a sweet girl. Feisty, but sweet!

I let her stay up until 9 tonight and we painted t-shirts together. I got a great deal on plain white Hanes t-shirts at Dollar General. For some reason they were clearancing them out and I got each package of t-shirts for $1, and each bag had 3 shirts! AWESOME! I have been wanting to try out painting them after I saw this bit on Martha Stewart months ago. I just haven't gotten around to it. When I saw these shirts on sale I bought 3 packs of them (in various sizes) then went to Wal-mart this evening and got fabric paint, and we had at it. I tried to take pics but my cheapo digital is not working for some reason so the pics will have to be posted later! Sorry!!

Anyway it's late here. I just wanted to post on what has been happening. My baby is growing up! Only 5 yrs old and I am having empty nest syndrome! Lord, help me! I know it's all part of life, it's just part of me wants to keep her little forever. She is so innocent, so naive to the world. Never in my life (or hers) have I felt that fear. It sounds crazy but it seems like it's the beginning of the end. Next time I blink she will be 18. I know it's best to let her go....I just need to find a way to cope with doing that. Who knew preschool would be so hard! LOL!!!!

California here we......don't come?

Well we got word today that California is not going to work out. There is a huge job at GE that has been waiting in the wings until now of course, and Phil needs to go there the week he was supposed to go to California! So, we will be staying home! oh well. Hopefully he will be able to go out there soon and we can tag along then.

In other news, I also think that this house selling thing is not an option. Call me a nut job if you want, but I have been praying about it and I really felt like God said the house was not going to sell. It's that same voice that told me "your baby is gone" when I had my miscarriage before the doctors even confirmed it so I tend to believe that this is true.

There are good things and bad things to all of this. 1. The cost of living here is so much cheaper than in the northeast. We couldn't find a shack there for what we paid for this house here. 2. I am just starting to make lots of friends here and it's great just knowing someone. 3. We already have a house here. 4. We know the area 5. The schools are really good. THE BAD: Phil works mostly out there, though he is home about the same amount of time that he was when he worked in Canada so really we are used to it. BAD: Not being near family, well our extended family that is.

Again mixed emotions. I hate going back and forth though. It is so stressful. It's like, if you know your situation you take it and deal with it and do it. Not knowing is so much stress, I don't even have a clue as what to handle, nevermind how.

So NY here we stay. It's God's will. He wants us here for some reason, and though I am not sure why yet, I know it's best!

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Ok so are you all sick of me yet? So today I was talking to Phil and he said that he needs to go to California to work later in the month. Work pays for that flight because it is work afterall. He does have one roundtrip ticket that he has earned with points that gets us a free flight anywhere this airline flies. Just so happens it goes to California where he is going. So he said that I should go with him. Once we figured out airfare for someone to come here and watch the kids, plus paying them etc we figured it would be cheaper to just bring them. So for the cost of one flight (for Emma) we will all be going to California!!! YIPPEE! Did I mention that the hotel is paid for by per diem since he is working, and he gets food per diem for those days as well? The biggest thing for us is that Emma has never been on an airplane and has wanted to fly on one for quite some time now. She also doesn't know that we are going to bring her to Disneyland for the day! YEAH! So cool. I have never been to Disneyland. Granted it will only be for one day, but that's probably enough with 2 little ones aged 1 and 5!!!! I can't even believe it! I am so excited to see how Emma is going to react. I really think she will pee her pants since we aren't telling her about it! I can't wait!!!!

Such a sap

I have given up on selling this house. I know that it could still happen but we have no showings in over 3 weeks, and our contract with the realtor is almost up. So I had to begin to prepare for this coming fall. I know this house won't sell over the winter so we are going to start improving this house and making it better. I also had to go and register Emma for kindergarten. Can I just say right now that this is going to be SOOOOOO hard for me. Yes, she has been in preschool for the past 2 years, but this is different. This starts her academic learning for the next 13 years. This means my baby is no longer a baby. I was crying just talking about it. What the heck! haha! It's so different this time because she will be in school from 8:10 am until 2:45 pm. I am going to miss her. I know she will do well, it's just hard to wrap my brain around it. I know I will be fine once school starts and things are going, an thankfully I am a SAHM so I can volunteer at school, and this will give me alone time with Ethan. So overall this is all good. It's just seeing your baby grow up before your eyes. Where did the years go? It was just yesterday she was screaming in her crib and pooping in her pants! haha! But I know I have given good roots and now I have to let go and trust that this is the best thing for her. This really will be harder on me! haha! Anyway, just a little rant....I am such a sucker! Oh how I am dreading September but am thrilled all at the same time as I am excited to see all she will learn!

Ok well off to Borders.com to order the summer reading books! Ta Ta for now!

Water

Can I just say it is so much easier for me to drink water now that it is actually warm here! Thank you summer!

All Right All Ready!

Ethan woke up this morning at 5:30 am. I was so hoping he would fall back to sleep, but no such luck. So as I pulled my lazy butt out of bed to get him, I was hoping again that I would feed him and go back to sleep. I laid with him on the couch for a bit and talked and sang to him. By this time it was nearly 6 o'clock and Joyce Meyer was on so I figured I would start my day off by watching her, instead of sleeping. She DARED us to do something. Interestingly enough she was talking about how she has been exercising and getting into shape. She is 64, has had 4 kids, and looks really good. She was talking about how if we want change, WE have to do something. For instance, you want to loose weight. How do you do it? Do you sit and say I want to loose weight and then sit around and do nothing but pray for it and hope that magically one day you wake up thinner? I WISH! Boy do I wish! But NO you have to get off your butt and use self control and discipline and eat better and work out! Not the answer I wanted. I have been really well, disgusted with my body lately and all I have done is complain about it. Maybe if I stopped having birthday cake every night I would be thinner! So needless to say I was convicted. God was totally talking to me through that show. So when it ended, I stood up, got my weights, and began lifting. And now I am blogging and working on my second glass of water before I have breakfast. Good news is all that cake didn't affect all that much. I am 142.5 lbs but I am nearing my period again and I get heavier when I get it.

I feel good though. I have exercised all ready so I don't have to "dread" that all day. I have had 1/4 of my water for the day. Now I just have to eat right the rest of the day and things will be good. I will have achieved on perfect day!!!

Count your BLESSINGS

I have to admit that I have been a little down lately. We still live in NY while Phil works in the northeast. It seems like we will never sell our home. It seems like it's just one thing after another and I feel like I am on the edge of breaking. I am moody, and grouchy, and just plain awful to be around. I popped in an old CD I had of a group called the Martins. Soon enough the song "Count Your Blessings" came on. It's really what I need to do. God says he supplies all our needs according to his riches in glory. The lyrics to this song go like this:

Tired, frustrated and feeling down, the end of the day got you wearing a frown
Your trouble have doubled and brother what can you do
Here's a little advice pound for pound, it's guaranteed to bring you around
From that old sob story to a brand new point of view.

Count your blessings when your feeling blue, it's surprising what a little bit of counting can do.
Count them when everything goes wrong soon you'll start singing a song.
Count them whether they big or small, you just might have trouble counting them all
Your problems will simply fade from you if you just start counting your blessings.

Some people today will drive you insane
All they want to do is fuss and complain
About who, what, when,where, how they've been done wrong for so long
Spend less time and worry and more time in prayer
You'll have a lot less stress and a lot more hair
You go down counting you'll be shouting til your back on your feet.

Count your blessings when your feeling blue, it's surprising what a little bit of counting can do.
Count them when everything goes wrong soon you'll start singing a song.
Count them whether they big or small, you just might have trouble counting them all
Your problems will simply fade from you if you just start counting your blessings.



So my list of blessings:

I have a house
I have food
I have clothing
I have my health
I have 2 beautiful children
I have a hard working husband
I have money to cover all our expenses
I have a full functioning vehicle
My children are healthy
I know I am love by God
God has always been faithful

Sad to say this is all I can come up with at the moment and I am hoping my brain will begin to function and I can list more later.

Weird

The strangest thing happened to me yesterday. This woman calls my house and says hi who is this? Stupid me, I answer with my name. Then she says "um why has my husband at your house every other day?" My reply "What?" Again she asks the same question. I said "I think you have the wrong number." To which she replies......"No I don't" and she began swearing etc. to which I reply "OK" and hang up the phone! She then calls back and I have in the meantime told Phil what has happened. So this time he answers the phone but she would not talk to him. Then she never called back.

I know I am not cheating on my husband, and to really prove the point I have not been home in two weeks. So how is this supposed person at my house? And who is he with if I am not here? haha! It was so weird to be accused of that of all things. And then I was thinking she obviously thought I was lying because wouldn't most women deny it to the wife? haha! So strange!

Thankfully my husband knows this was and never will be true. He didn't even think twice about it and was right there to protect me as usual....be still my heart!

I'm BAAACK!

This first picture is the Birthday Girl!!! This is my grandmother. She is my father's , mother. She looks so gorgeous. No one would even believe she just turned 70!!! I hope that I am blessed with her ageless genes when I am her age.This is me and my dad! You can see Lake Champlain, and the Adirondacks in the background! It is really so pretty there.


Here is a picture of Emma fishing with grandpa Dave. He is my grandmother's second husband and not my blood grandfather, but he is awesome! He has been around since I was Emma's age and has been nothing, but good to us!!!

So we are finally back from our vacation. There is no place like home! Don't get me wrong I really enjoy being with my family, but there is something about coming home that is so great! Mostly because I can get the kids back into their routines, we sleep in our own beds, and naps and bedtime seems so much smoother. Nevermind the fact, that eating healthy completely went down the drain. Being my grandmother's birthday we literally had cake every night we were there (she ended up with 4 cakes!) and then went on to a graduation party for my sister with you guessed, more cake. So needless to say instead of loosing weight I wouldn't be surprise if I gained!

The best part of vacation was kicking back and relaxing and being spoiled and cooked for, for a whole week. My grandmother is awesome. Though she still works as a real estate appraiser, she comes home and cooks dinner every night. One thing I noticed about my grandmother is that she never complains about it. She never thinks of herself. She was always worried about us eating. She made us breakfast every morning. We had pancakes, french toast, waffles (real ones) eggs...you name it she cooked it. She was always the last to eat, as she was determined that our bellies be filled to the brim before she would take a bite. And then she would do it all again for dinner. She really is so thoughtful and I have honestly never heard her complain once about it in my whole life. I really wish I could be more like that....to serve my family joyfully instead of having pity parties for myself and being a martyr. I don't want my family to think I am burdened by serving them. Thanks grammie for reminding me of that...and hopefully I can do better to change that about myself.

I think the worst part of the vacation was trying to wrangle an almost 14 month old little boy. Their house is right on the lake and they have a small yard that has a sea wall and then off the sea wall it drops right into the water. Ethan being in the exploring stage always wanted to get down, but would head right for the sea wall. Why is it that kids seem to know what is dangerous and are drawn to it like a magnet. Even before you tell them "no" for the first time it is in them to explore the most dangerous things ever.

I can officially say that Ethan is walking! YEAH! and BOO! all at the same time! LOL! You mother's know what I mean. And forget about eating out.....oh lord it's all coming back to me. 1 yr olds are impossible to deal with just about anywhere!!! Luckily I know that this too shall pass!

Can I just say though that he is the happiest, cutest little boy ever! He may be a handful but I must say he is by far my happiest baby. This child is always full of smiles. He wakes up happy! What joy he brings to our family. Both of us just look at him and are in awe of how incredibly cute and happy he is. I know I keep using the "happy"word, but it's so true. You can wake him up from a dead sleep and he just looks up at you smiles the biggest smile and says "hi" in his cute little high voice. It is just to precious for words.

Now for Emma. She said something so funny the other day. We were here at home and it was cold. It was raining and then for a brief moment it actually started to snow. YES SNOW! Yikes! Anyway, Emma looks out the window all disappointed and says "I thought summer was coming, and I think Jesus is up there now and he pushed the wrong button." It was so cute! In her little mind she pictures Jesus sitting up in heaven on His throne in front of a switch board pushing buttons to control the weather. And because it was May, he slipped and instead of hitting the "rain" button, he hit the "snow" button. Too funny how their minds think. Though who knows, she could be right...though God doesn't make mistakes so if He did push the snow button it was done on purpose! What is that verse...unless you become like a child you will not enter the kingdom of God.

Well I do believe this is the end of this blog! It was very long, but hey I have been gone for a while so there was lots to say.

Until next time....