He did it........but I can't prove it..........

Ok so not only is Ethan 8 weeks old today he also rolled over for the first time. I saw him do it---one of the benefits of being home with my kids---but I can't prove it! I tried to get him to do it again while I video taped it, but he just couldn't do it again. Rolling over the first time took away all of his energy! Oh well maybe tomorrow!

Ethan is 8 weeks old!!!!!!!

So I forgot some important things yesterday as I was blogging. I got so wrapped up in the situation with Emma that I was exhausted after typing all that! Ethan is 8 weeks old today, though officially he is not considered 2 months until next Tuesday. For some reason it amazes me every milestone he hits. It's as though I thought he was going to stay as he was forever. So I got my first smile from him last Tuesday. Yes that day I was deathly sick. So that would have been May 22nd! I was sitting there holding him on the couch after feeding him and I was just talking to him as I usually do and he smiled right back at me. Wow does that make your heart melt. Finally some recognition that I actually exist in his world! And today both kids woke up at 6:30 am and I actually fed both of them and had them ready to go before 8:00. We leave for school at 8:30 so this is a major accomplishment. I even got to take a shower this morning before bringing her to school. That doesn't happen often. But while I was showering I had Ethan in the bathroom with me in his seat and he started getting vocal for the first time. Just cooing away as he watched Emma get dressed! Too cute!!

Now I hope I am not misunderstood because I know it seems as if I prefer Ethan over Emma at this time, and it is totally not true!! I am just having a hard time with Emma, and watching all these new exciting things happen to Ethan. He is actually not so fussy anymore either. So for the moment he is the easier one, but I know that the tides will change and Emma will be an angel again and I will be having diffulcty with him. I love both my kids so much, I just think I like them in different ways, different days!!!! Of course we will tend to gravitate towards whoever is easier at the time...it's only natural. Though it's not made known to her at the time, because then she would really act out!!!

Anyway they were both really good today besides a few minor things with Emma, and mommy and Ethan got to go out to coffee with a mom from preschool this morning as well so it was nice to get out of the house for a while and talk to an adult. Especially since her 4 year old is going through much of the same thing mine is. It's always good to know you are not the only one and YES your kid is normal!!!

All that being said I should go for now. Here is a picture of my chubby sleepy 8 week old!

P.S. It's so stinking hot and humid here today....that's why he's a nakey baby---as Emma would say!!!

Crazy, spoiled, and tired.

Well we are back from vacation and I must say it's nice to be home. I feel as if these types of "family" vacations are more stressful at times then relaxing. We left for Lake Champlain early Monday morning and it was a rough ride there. I had not gotten any sleep the night before...of course...with last minute packing and a 7 week old sleep did not come easily. We headed out for our long ride as prepared as could be, but as we all know as much as we plan things always go wrong! Our ride was filled with crying babies, whiny 4 year olds, and lots of stops that added 3 hours to our trip. We had to stop at the post office with ebay items along the way and when we finally found one it was closed for 15 minutes while they were on break! Does anyone work anymore!!!! When the finally opened we sent our packages off without a hitch....until we got back to the car. Where there was this foul smell. We thought that it may have been the dog who did get sick in her kennel but come to find out it was our son who did a major load in his pants! So I had to change the stinky diaper in Phil's new truck and in the process Ethan decided to pee all over the seat. Phil was not happy, and I was not happy cause Phil was not happy! We finally got to Alburg at 6:00 pm and we had left our house at 7:00 am! It is supposed to be a 7 hour drive! So we ate dinner and went to bed....but not for long for me. It seems I had picked up some sort of stomach bug along the way so that kept me running to the toilet all night, along with feeding the baby every 4 hours. Needless to say I was pooped "no pun intended" the following day. Phil had to get up early and leave so it was me...feeling like crap at the house with both the kids. My grandmother had a doctor's apt that day and she did not get home until lunch. She then wanted to take us out shopping which was nice, but I really wasn't in the best of moods to be going, but I did anyway. Now I still have not mastered shopping with both kids and it drives me nuts to have Emma walk, as she is very impulsive as most 4 yr olds are. She runs and touches everything and it stresses me out. Add that on top of fussy Ethan...because his normal routine was out of whack from traveling....and me having not eaten a thing because of being sick, and having little sleep...it was just a disaster. But Emma got her toys to play with and I got my stomach medicine and things seemed to be looking up. I went to bed early that night because I was so exhausted. Wednesday we spent the day watching movies, and checking out the new house my grandmother is building. Then we went food shopping, and Phil got off of work that day and met us at the supermarket. When we got back to my grandmother's house we noted that we had to take the car seats in the house so we wouldn't forget because she had an all day meeting Thursday and was leaving at 5 am. Well guess what!!! We forgot to get them out of her car. So Phil had all of Thursday off and we couldn't do a thing because we had no car seats. GREAT! Then I find out that Phil had guessed what his birthday present was.......OK NEW PLAN good thing I did not purchase it yet! We left that night at 6:30 pm to drive to Massachusetts and did not get there until 10:30 pm. Not too bad. Emma whined most of the way, but Ethan was a good boy and slept the whole time. Nobody was available Friday to visit so we did some errands, are some lunch, and then went to the wedding rehearsal, then dinner. We did not get home until 11 pm. Then I had to rat out my little sister for doing something she shouldn't have been. I felt terrible and it caused major drama in the house and upset many people. I hated doing it, but I love her and dont' want to see her get hurt. She is only 17, and it's rough being that age. I hope she knows it was only done for her own good!!!
Then the wedding was Saturday at 11 am and it was stressful having about 10 people in the same house trying to get ready. My little sister woke up and was talking to me again so that was good! But getting ready was a nightmare. As many people know with kids they have to be last minute, but by the time everyone showered and got ready and we got the kids ready we were all stressed to the max! The wedding however went off without a hitch and Emma did very well as flower girl! Then it was off to the reception.....we visited with lots of relatives that we hadn't seen in a while most we like, but a chosen few we could have done without! The reception ended at 4 but it seemed as if the party went back to my dad's house! By the time everyone cleared out it was 9 maybe 10 o'clock, and most people went to bed. I on the other hand stayed up to pack as we were leaving Sunday. Sunday came all to quickly and I met up with my mother who spoiled the kids, which I appreciate but hate all at the same time. I notice my kids get so spoiled while with everyone that they....meaning Emma....thinks that she can have whatever she wants whenever she wants. Because when we visit family that's what happens. Which they should be able to spoil her and enjoy buying her things, but where do you draw the line....because we took a trip to the mall today...for me....and boy was she a brat. She thought and expected to be bought everything she wanted, thought she could eat lunch out and get Dunkin Donuts....thought that she could run around like a fool....boy did she test me today!! Anyway back to last Sunday....after we met up with my mom we went to my sister in law's house so she could meet the baby.....and then it was off to NY again. We did not get home until midnight, and the ride pretty much went the same as the first time except this time it rained the whole way, and all of our stuff in the bed if the truck got soaked!

Don't get me wrong I love seeing everyone but it seems as if we always do all the work and it tends to be very stressful.

I am happy to be home but in some ways a little bored as well.

Now I will spend this next week getting the baby back on schedule and happy, and getting my daughter back in line. She is really testing the waters. She is very smart and knows when to act up. We were paying for my items in line with a gift card that did not want to work and she is hanging on the ropes that help form the line, she is trying to wake up the baby in the carriage by banging on his head, she is standing on the carriage and almost flipping it over etc. finally I had enough and I gave her a little pinch on the arm to encourage good behavior to which she responds to by screaming stop hurting my skin....that's not nice...I'm gonna have to spank you! YIKES! She is smart! So we had to leave and go out to the car to have a talk. While I was changing Ethan out there though she decides to put her tv on.....to which I decide that she is supposed to be punished out there and should not be watching tv so I unplug it. She starts crying and telling me I am not her friend (she is right, I am not her friend I am her mother) and that she is going to tell daddy and spank me because I am not nice. After I thought I had handled the situation we went back in.....and only because I had to. I was hoping and praying that the behavior would change but it did not. She seemed to have gotten worse. If I said dont' do it she would look at me and do it anyway, over and over again.....and still wanted me to buy her things and do stuff for her! AGH!!!! She is a spoiled brat! Sorry to say it, but that's what she was acting like and I really dont want her to be that. Honestly the kid has everything she could ever want because we have to much family who 1. loves her 2. sadly to say try to outdue each other in hopes of being the favorite person and 3. lets her act like an animal. How do you put in an end to this without being rude? I am very thankful for the things we do get my mom in particular is constantly giving me money for clothes and diapers etc which helps out a great deal, but when is enough enough. Especially with the toys! How do you fix it! I want my sweet little girl back. One thing I need to do is make her start doing chores. She is 4 and old enough to do some things around here. Plus if she does her chores she can get an allowance and learn to save up for things that she wants and realize that things aren't immediate all the time. I know we dont help this problem especially now since I am exhausted with the baby I tend to let her behavior slip a bit because it just too exhausting to even think about dealing with. But I can't neglet raising one child while raising the other. I have to step up no matter how difficult, and exhausting it's going to be. Like Emma said "I am not her friend". I just pray for strength to do it because this is going to be a rough ride. The first step was tonight by taking the tv out of the room. She had one in her room originally for movies, but as I got further along in my pregnancy and until after delivery she would watch cartoons in there. But it's way out of control now. She cries when asked to do something because she will miss her show, and that's all she wants to do. She is out of control. So today though the tv is still there the cable is cut off, and we are back to it's original use....MOVIES ONLY, and only on occasion! This makes more work for me again, because I will have to do more with her, and again I am so tired that taking that on makes me want to sleep....but it has to be done.

Anyway, I suppose I am done ranting for now. My head hurts so much from being so angry and frustrated today. I am just at my wits end and I have been dreading fixing the situation but it needs to be done. And some say I have high standards, but requiring my child to be respectful, and obedient is something I will not let slide. If she can show respect to her teacher she can certainly do it to me.

So I am in for some hard work and I will keep you posted. God help me!

Lady in waiting

It is 11:30 am here and I am patiently waiting for Ethan to wake up so that I can feed him and head to the supermarket. Don't get me wrong, its quiet here and I am enjoy the peace but this seems to happen all the time. It's like kids know that you want to do something! They sense that you are waiting to get things accomplished and then they go against everything that is normal for them and make it impossible to get things done! HAHA! Too funny! Such is life....

So we haven't gone to Lake Champlain yet! Phil's jobs keep changing and he had to reschedule several times. I think that we will be going on Monday now so that will be nice. We will be away from home for a long time, since the wedding is next weekend as well. So we will leave from VT and go right to Massachusetts so Emma can be the flower girl. Which by the way she is going to be the cutest flower girl ever! I posted a picture of her in her dress! She says she is "like a princess in her wedding dress." Haha! Apparantely she doesn't know she's not getting married!

Well I am off to clean a bit before Ethan wakes up (but he will sense that I am cleaning and wake up anyway so I won't get that done at all...but hey at least I can leave to get food!)

I think we've got it.........finally.

Ok so I think we've finally figured this out. Ethan is on formula has been having a really hard time for the past 5 weeks. First it was normal formula which I had a sneaking suspicion would not work as Emma was on Soy because of the bad gas she had. And mommy was right regular formula did not work so we switched to soy. He was on that for a while and still had terrible gas pains. He would wake up from a sound sleep screaming and arching his back until he could pass it. So again, we switched formulas this time to Lactofree. No one in our families is lactose intolerant but we figured maybe this was the problem. It seemed better than the soy, but still did not resolve the problem. The poor boy was suffering so much. So now finally we are trying the Enfamil Gentlease. He has been on this for 2 days now and has not woken up once with gas pains, he burps easier, and he has not projectile vomited! All good signs. I am really hoping this is the one, as we are running out of options. We tried the gas drops, and they would work sometimes and not at others. When I did more research on them the whole concept behind them is to make all the little bubbles join together to form one huge gas bubble. Seems like a good idea, but if the bubbles don't form while they are high up in the digestive track, then they get trapped in there essentially making the gas pains worse, and causing things such as projectile vomiting. Of course they don't say all this in the pamphlet but this is what i have learned through researching it. Anyway so fingers crossed that this one works. Seeing him suffer really brings in the mommy guilt of not breast feeding, when I know that really because of medical reasons it is near impossible for me to solely breastfeed anyway.

He is like a brand new kid by the way. Most of his crankiness was because of gas.....he was so unconsolable. The gas was trapped causing so much pain and just would not come out. If this sticks and has no other side effects I will be so happy, and I am sure he will be too.

Are you real?

"'Real isn't how you are made,' said the Skin Horse. 'It's a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real.'

'Does it hurt?' asked the Rabbit.

'Sometimes,' said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. 'When you are Real you don't mind being hurt.'

'Does it happen all at once, like being wound up,' he asked, 'or bit by bit?'

'It doesn't happen all at once,' said the Skin Horse. 'You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't often happen to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand.'"

---The Velveteen Rabbit---

Same parents, 2 kids, different personalities!

Wow are there huge differences in my children! Now don't get me wrong I did not go into this thinking that they would be clones of each other. I realize they are both separate and unique individuals, but sometimes one childs uniqueness can be very trying!

Emma is a sweet little girl. Overall she is a good kid. She has a temper, and is very smart and knows how to manipulate situations to get what she wants. But hey, what kid wouldn't. In the womb she was very laid back and hardly ever moved and loved for me to rub her little back through my stomach. She loves having her back rubbed even to this day. As a newborn she slept alot during the day, and was content sitting in her swing or chilling out in one of her seats. She didn't sleep through the night until she was 4 months old and even after that she still woke up in the middle of the night on occasion. I did have my moments with her when she would cry and I felt like I wanted to throw her out the window, but overall she was a good baby.

Now, Ethan on the other hand never stopped moving inside of me. He hates having his back rubbed, but is all for a good head rub! I think he has inherited the temper that runs in the family as well. Ethan is more demanding. As soon as he wakes up he wants food and wants it now. He loves being held but mostly by me.....a momma's boy from the start.... He absolutely hates diaper changes and screams until the last button on his outfit is done up. He likes being awake, but always seems bored. He is mostly content if I hold him, but who can do that 24/7. He was awake for a long period of time last night. One of the times I had him in his seat where he was content for oh.......about 2 minutes....then he began to cry. I picked him up, and though I know he is only 5 weeks old and probably has no thoughts at this point, he looked at me stopped crying and just had this overjoyed happy look on his face. He just wanted to be near his mom. Which is great and I love sleeping with my baby, but he moves so much! He is constantly kicking and poking and scratching at me. He is a boob man already! He loves to just grab onto my shirt between my cleavage and hold on for dare life!

Now I love both my kids to death and I am not saying Ethan is horrible because he is a little more difficult. He just loves me, and how can you say he's bad for that! It just makes life a bit harder in the long run!

And though they aren't the same, I love both of them very much, and always will. I love them for who they are...the good the bad and the ugly, and I know that someday I will look back and long to hold Ethan all the time. Or wish that I had done it more with Emma even though she as content to be where she lay. I guess the point is to love those around you for who they are, and to cherish all of these moments....even the bad...because before I know it they will be gone, and just a memory...if that...because surprisingly you do forget alot of the little things.

I look forward to seeing my children grow up and become whoever God wants them to be, and seeing how He uses the uniqueness in each of them. Now I just need His strength to deal with both of them in the meantime!

And speaking of demanding.....he is awake and crying at this very moment. So until next time....

Superwoman.............

As a woman we are expected in alot of ways to be everything, and do everything for everyone. We go through life, cook, clean, do laundry, birth, and rear children...often times well at least much of the time mostly on our own. Our husbands go off to work and don't get me wrong they do work hard at what they do, but in a way when they get home their job ends. We were made to give.....to sacrifice for everyone else, but who sacrifices for us?

Why is it in our lives when we ask for help, or when we are overwhelmed with something we are always looked at as bad people, or even weak people. We all have trials in our lives and rough patches, but it's a shame that we have to hide the fact that we are human and are not perfect. Just like most people we get overwhelmed, we are lonely, afraid, and at times feel like the whole world is against us. We always get through it, and in the long run become stonger people for it.
There are so many relationships in my life right now that I just sit back and question. Why are certain people in my life when they seem more of a burden then a blessing?(no not my son, though he is a challenge at times) The challenge presents itself all the time, and though things are fine for a while the waves come and the difficulty begins all over again. The guilt for somehow feeling responsible for these people is enormous and then there is a sense of loyalty to them as well. Like it's my job to save people who do not want to be saved. It seems so hopeless at times.

It's hard to take on the burden of these people when so much is going on in your own lives. These people can vent all of their problems and not be looked upon as a bad person, but you even speak one word of weakness to them and you are automatically looked at as unfit, insignificant, and unworthy of their attention. They cut you down, and always make you feel guilty for feeling a certain way, or even hold things against you. So you sit in silence taking on the weight of the world, along with their heavy burdens. Their problems are always worse then yours. You are constantly made to feel like your situation is golden compared to theirs. And perhaps sometimes it is, but we aren't looking for anything more than a sympathetic non-judgmental ear.

Many think that because we stay home, we somehow have it easier. That we sit all day and eat bon bons.........now don't get me wrong I do have my lazy days, especially lately........but we are looked at as less because we "just stay home with our kids". Isn't that one of the most important jobs in the world though? We are raising future members of society....and it's hard to shape the lives of these little people. If they turn out wrong, alot of it falls back on the job we did as parents.

I am really sick of the fake ingenuine people with comments that spew from their mouth like nothing. They talk the talk but don't walk the walk. They make theirselves out to be the saviour of the universe, and behind closed doors they are the complete opposite. Do they somehow think that they are REALLY this great, or do they know that they are fake as can be?

Now please don't jump to conclusions on who "these people" may be. They are no one really close to me, just people who surround me that I can't get away from, that seem to be nothing but poison in my life. Just some thoughts that I had, and the need to vent! Ok enough ranting...off to shower before the baby wakes up!

Just an ordinary day

Both kids in their baseball caps! Not much to say today. Today is going rather well. I was able to sleep in a bit today. The baby woke up at 3 am and 6 am to eat and then we slept until 9 am which was really nice. I need to go out soon to drop off Emma's flower girl dress, and my dress for my dad's wedding. They are both a touch too big and we need to get them altered. I am still in my pj's though and it's almost 2pm so I may have to put it off until tomorrow. I wish I could go while Emma was in school but that won't work since she needs to be there to try on the dress! Maybe we'll just go after school tomorrow. It has to be this week though since the wedding is the 26th!

Fun Day

We had so much fun at Six Flags Darien Lake today! Emma is such a daredevil. She was bored with kiddie rides, and wanted something more daring! She rode the pirate ship about 10 times and loved it to death.....I am talking the adult Pirate ship...no kiddie stuff for her! She rode something that went really fast in a circle and then the whole cart spun itself as well....(not sure of the name). Anyway she rode on so many things that would scare most four year olds. She wanted to go on the sky coaster--you know that thing where you put on a harness and they raise you up 200 ft in the air and let you swing. Phil said "he better stay young for her cause when she's 14 she's gonna wear him out" (By the way, he'll be 40 when she is 14!)It was so much fun just to ride, rides with her and watch her giggle and scream and just plain old let loose and have fun! Ethan was a good boy and slept almost the whole 4 hours we were there, with the exception of 1 bottle and 1 diaper change. He is actually up in his crib sleeping as I write this. I actually need to go get Emma in bed though so that I can shower and relax until 9 when Ethan wakes up!

Oh yah, and the local news was there with cameras, and we saw them taping as we were buying our tickets, while we were walking through the line to get into the park, while we were entering the park, and while we were on some rides. Maybe we'll be on the news tonight! We shall see. I'll post a link if we are!!!!

It's been a month

I can't believe that 4 weeks ago today I was giving birth to my son. I have to admit that the time has gone by very quickly. I went for my 4 week check up today. All he did was check my incision and said that things look good and that I am healing really good. I have lost a ton of weight already which is what happened with Emma, as well. I was 156 at delivery and today weighed in at 130. It is so weird to me how the weight just falls off of me when I have a baby. I am actually thinner than I was when I got pregnant with him. I have lots of toning up to do though. I still have the baby rolls on my belly, and the love handles. The doctor gave me the ok for cardio, and light weights but any abdominal work has to be put off for a few more weeks. So the pot belly remains for a while longer. I still have about 10 lbs to loose because I am little --only 5'3", but it will come. I just have to be diligent in maintaining that once it is off. That's where I went wrong after Emma.

So Emma had a great day at school today. It was nice to have my apt. while she was at school. I knew she was in safe hands and it was a relief to only have to take one child to the doctor's. I actually don't mind going out with both of them, but the doctor's is boring and tends to lead to whining! Emma had a dance contest in school. She had tons of fun and won the prize for "Most Action" which really describes her dancing style to a tee. She moves around alot! Dance lessons may be in her future this fall!

This weekend is supposed to be gorgeous and I am excited about that because Six Flags is opening up this weekend. 2 fantastic things about this.....1. They offer residents $10 admission this weekend only, and 2. It's only 15 minutes from our house so it's very conveinent. I am sure it will be packed, but Emma has wanted to go since we moved here and we keep promising we will take her. She is quite the little daredevil and already wants to ride roller coasters...even though she is way to small. I figure this is a great weekend to go since it's so cheap so we will do that one day this weekend!

I think we are going to go to Lake Champlain next week which will be a nice break. My grandmother lives there and Phil has a job up in Montreal only an hour from her house. We are planning on packing up the kids and one dog and going up for a couple of days. Emma has to miss school next week, but 1. it's only preschool and 2. another year and we will not just be able to pick up and go with Phil as she will be in kindergarten. Now if only I could find her phone number to see if they will be around! I don't know what it is about her phone number but everytime I ask for it I loose it!

Ok just called her we are all set! What a nice little vacation that will be. I am dying to get out of the house and be around people and have fun. Yes, I know I am talking about hanging out with my grandparents but they are young grandparents (only in their 60's) and it will be so relaxing to go and just sit by the Lake, and have fun with Emma.

Well off I go to pack for next week. I know, I know it's kind of early to be packing but I have the time right now and if I don't get it done now I will be scrambling at the last minute to do it and then I will be all stressed out about it and I HATE that.

By the way, it has taken all day to write this post. Oh the joys of being a mom......I wouldn't trade it for anything though.....

Hectic morning

So far today we are off to a rocky start. We slept pretty well last night Thank God and I definately think the problem was too much gas in Ethan's belly. Now he still gets up in the middle of the night but we don't have endless cry fests like we did earlier in the week. This morning was a little crazy! Phil got up and got ready for work and I was dead to the world sleeping with my baby in my arms. Emma was up but I did not here her...she was being a very good girl watching cartoons. Now this seems like it's a good thing, but in reality it wasn't. Phil thought he would be nice and let me sleep so he did not wake me up before he left for work. He left Emma with instructions to wake me up at 8:00 so that I could get her to school for 9:00. Does anyone see what's wrong here yet? Though it was sweet of him to let me sleep, there were definately a few issues in doing so... 1. A sleep deprived mom is not just going to wake up at the normal time (I am usually up at 7 every morning) she is going to sleep as long as the little one allows! 2. When you put a 4 year old in front of cartoons she is not going to be running to check the clock to see when she shoule wake me up. 3. She barely knows what 8:00 looks like on the clock so it the clock said 8:03 and she did check it she would not know that 8:00 had past already and she should wake me up! 4. Emma drags her feet in the morning and before we had Ethan we needed to get up at 7:00 to get her ready for school....yes getting her ready takes a good hour and a half. I am dreading when real school starts and she has to be there at 7:00! What a joy that will be!
So I ended up waking up on my own at 8:15 or so. Now mind you I usually have both kids in the car at 8:30. I had to get up feed, change, and dress the baby. Feed, dress, brush teeth/hair for Emma. I darn near gave up, but she was so upset that she wouldnt' be able to go to school (I am sure that attitude will change in a few years..but for now she loves school). So I have a crying, hungry baby, a 4 year old who is taking her good old time to eat and me running around trying to get back packs ready, myself dressed, hair brushed, clothes on....thank God I set her clothes out the night before. Well needless to say we made it out of the house at 8:50. Then we get halfway up the driveway and Ethan pukes (my fault, did not have time to burp him enough) all over his face...it was even up his nose! So I had to stop the car and wipe him up, and bring him to school with his pukey clothes on! Which he is still in by the way cause I had to go to the supermarket to get some milk, cereal etc. and he is sound asleep in his seat and I have to leave in 20 minutes to go get her so I am not waking him up!
I hate when days start off like this. I may not be the neatess, most organized person in the world, but running late like that really stresses me out and I turn into the wicked witch of the west! Then I hate that I am so grumpy towards my kids! But I suppose it happens and we all do it at times.

The important thing is that I got her to school just in the nick of time...Emma kept telling me to drive faster to get there....haha, and I did get to sleep until 8:15 so I guess really I can't complain. And though his clothes have puke on them he seems to be quite happy and content sleeping in his car seat!