Good Friday..

Today is good Friday, i only wish I was feeling good. I woke up today with an awful headache and my heart is racing on and off. This may be due to the weaning off of the BC Pill I am on. I actually quit cold turkey after I found out the awful things it is doing to me. I hear it gets worse before it gets better! Not at all how I thought my Easter would go. My hormones are all messed up and I feel like I could break down any minute! Not to mention that we still haven't heard one work about whether or not we can rent that house and we are supposed to move in 1 1/2 weeks. I don't know what's so hard about giving us a rent amount. If he doesn't want to rent I would appreciate him just saying that. We had our hopes up and both love the house and the area, and now he is dragging his feet on this and it's really pissing me off. Talk about doing things at the midnight hour.

On a good note we have someone taking a look at our house tomorrow and I am hopeful that they will put an offer on it. They are getting married soon and looking for their first house so this could be a good option for them. I just pray this is the one because I stress out way too much over things like this and I need it all to be over with.

So hopefully this motrin will kick and and things will be better in a few hours. But for now I am off to clean!

A hot shower...........

....that's all I am asking for! I don't feel well, and the past 2 times I have gone to take a shower the hot water heater has been tripped and there is no HOT water. WHY? I am not in the mood for this.
I have been extra pissy these days and I really think it's the birth control pill that I am taking. It's giving me an awful time and I need to change but I think we are moving....key word is THINK, we still haven't heard yet, and i don't want to pay the doctor's payment here and then have to do it again anyway when we move since a NY doctor can only prescribe prescriptions in NY! UGH! I can't wait to tie my tubes! haha! Then I don't have to worry about all this!

I really need summer. I am tired of runny nosed kids, being stuck indoors, not knowing if we are moving or not etc, etc etc. The list just goes on and on.

It's just life really, I just hate moving. The waiting is especially hard. We have already started to button things up here and if we find out we are not moving it will be very disappointing. It's just the not knowing. I get like this every time. I want to know and then get on with things. We could move in 2 weeks, but then we may be here for a while as well. I don't know. Everything adding up just gets to you after a while.

Then I had plans to take the kids to the store to buy my niece a b-day gift and there is NO hot water to shower. No it's not the end of the world it's just the straw that breaks the camels back. Thankfully I have a shower, and a home.....it's just so hard to focus on the good at times.

Boy and I Debbie Downer lately or what?

The testing begins...

We are not getting that brown house that it posted in the pics below! We did however look at a beautiful house that is much closer to family and that is a rent to own. The house is perfect and we really like it it has everything that both of us wants. BUT, we may be running into some issues with the seller. We saw this house on a site as a rent to own for a certain price. When we talked to the realtor she said that price was way too high for us to pay per month and said it should be about $400 less. When she spoke with the seller he wanted to rent it to us for $300 more than originally listed. This may get sticky now. The realtor told him he was crazy as that was WAY to high for the market right now. He fought a bit so we are not really sure what he is thinking. We really want this house, but I don't want to be pressured into something again. I feel like this is our house, and am hoping and having faith it will all work out. Just as the other house fell through I knew if it did then God would provide something even better and he has. I really think this is where we belong, but maybe I am just blinded by the house! Who knows. So I am just having faith that it will all work out however that may be. It's hard to say that though. We are definitely excited to get this house and want it badly so if it doesn't work out we will be very disappointed. It's hard to trust in situations like this!!! I just so hope this works out for us!!! HOPEFULLY! We shall see! I will keep you posted.

Lord help me to remember if not this one then there will be something better!!!!

2 strikes left....

We are not getting that new house that we wanted. Phil and I have been talking and the more we talk about it the less we like the people selling it. They listed the property as a rent to own, but they are putting major pressure on us to buy this house in 6 months. If we don't they are raising the rent $400 a month! That's alot of money. And we may not be able to do that if this house here hasn't sold. I think they really just want someone to come in and buy it and that being the case it should not have been listed as a rent to own.

We do however have an appointment to look at a house this weekend. It is smaller than the house we are in but it does have 8 acres which is really important to Phil. We can always add onto the house as we will be paying much less for it. I actually have some pics of it. Now mind you it's nothing spectacular but the location is. It will be our little log cabin in the woods. And oh yah...no pressure to purchase. We can take our time and do it when we are ready.

http://www.noseworthyrealestate.com/picture%20pages/2645248pictures.htm

11 months old....so cute!

Shoot I missed it..........

I so wished I had my video camera today when I went to get Ethan from his nap. He was fussing a bit and I was in the middle of something so Emma said she would go up there and talk to him like she does often. So when I was done I went up there to get him, and there was Emma sitting on his little Giraffe rocker with her battery operated keyboard, banging away on the keys and singing all the while Ethan is dancing and laughing in his crib. It was so cute! But of course I had to say "I'm coming" as I walked upstairs and ruined it all! UGH! Hopefully they'll do it again so I can catch it! :(

Somes things I've learned but haven't mastered all of them yet.

I've learned
that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved.
The rest is up to them.

I've learned
that no matter how much I care,
some people just don't care back.

I've learned
that it takes years to build up trust,
and only seconds to destroy it.

I've learned
that its not what you have in your life
but who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned
that you can get by on charm for about 15 minutes.
After that, you'd better know something

I've learned
that its not what happens to people that's improtant.
It's what they do about it.

I've learned
that you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.

I've learned
that no matter how thin you slice it,
there are always two sides.

I've learned
that its taking me a long time to
become the person I want to be.

I've learned
that it's a lot easier to react that it is to think

I've learned
that you should always leave loved
one with loving words. It may be
the last time you see them.

I've learned
that we are responsible for what we do,
no matter how we feel

I've learned
that either you control your attitude
or it controls you.

I've learned
that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first,
the passion fades and there had better be something else to
take its place.

I've learned
that heros are the people who do what has to be
done when it needs to be done,
regardless of the consequences.

I've learned
that learning to forgive takes practice

I've learned
that true friendship continues to grow,
even over the longest distanace.

I've learned
no matter how bad your heart is
broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief

I've learned
that our background and circumstances may have
influenced who we are, but we are responsible
for who we become.

I've learned
that no matter how you try to protect your kids,
they will eventually get hurt and you will hurt in the process.

I've learned
that there are many ways of falling and staying in love.

I've learned
that although the word "love" can have different meanings,
it loses value when overly used.