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We give great honor to those who endure under suffering. For instance, you know about Job, a man of great endurance. You can see how the Lord was kind to him at the end, for the Lord is full of tenderness and mercy.

~ James 5:11, NLT

MY VERSE TODAY!

Change of Plans

I just got back from my doctor's appointment a little bit ago. The ultrasound results were good all is cleaned out---good news---BUT having done an internal exam he said that I still need time to heal. He said I really shouldn't even be having sex right now. So not what I was expecting to hear. He also said that I should be waiting a few months before I start trying again and I should definitely be on birth control. Also, when I come off of the birth control to wait until I have 2 periods before I start trying. He said that since it may be a while until I get my next period, I need to start the pill today. You can still ovulate during this time, and he in NO WAY wants me getting pregnant right now. He said there is still too much healing to do. So, I start the pill today. I have 3 months worth to take then I can go off and have to wait 2 cycles to try again. Looks like we will be getting a 2010 baby rather than a 2009 baby. Which in some ways is a bummer, but in others it is good. I was really struggling whether or not to go back on birth control. I knew I did not want to be pregnant in Florida, but I didn't want to have to wait to try again after the trip. I had come to the conclusion that I would just by ovulation kits and test and avoid all contact with Phil LOL! for those few days. BUT, the doctor said otherwise! We will not be trying again until next Spring. I have to admit I am jealous of those out there pregnant or trying at the moment...but hey..that was not in the plan for me :) And good news is...Ethan will be close to 3 years old before we have the new one...and hopefully out of diapers.

Speaking of diapers, did I mention how Ethan took a huge turd in his pants right before the doctor came in. He walked in and I warned him that Ethan was "filling his pants" and he responded..."I can smell that!" It was awful! I felt bad...but hey he is a baby doctor afterall...and to be quite frank...he has probably had many mothers poo during delivery so it's not new to him. And he has a son 4 months older than Ethan...so he gets it! I just don't get why kids pick the most inconvenient times to do things like that......got to love them!

The Joys of Little Boys

What a stressful night we had last night!

First of all my SIL delivered a healthy baby girl yesterday. 6 lbs 15 ounces and 20 1/2 inches long!! Happy Birthday Catherine!!!

The weather here has been a bit crazy! It is 70's in the day, and getting down to 36 degrees at night. Sunday night when Phil was home we had our first fire in the wood stove. Monday night he was gone and I did not want to get a fire going. But I didn't sleep well that night because the kids kept waking up and my hunch is that they were cold. So yesterday night I decided we needed to have another fire. I began to get it going late in the afternoon as a cold stove takes a while to produce a good fire! About an hour into it I was around the house doing my thing, when I hear awful screams coming from the living room. My heart just sank. I knew Ethan had touched the stove. I ran in there and looked at his hand which at the time did not look so bad. We ran it under cool water several times and let it be. Afterall, this wasn't the first burn I have dealt with. What I didn't realize at the time was that he burned all the fingers on his left hand except for the thumb. The pads on his fingers were burned down to where the first joint is. 2 1/2 hours later he was still crying about it and just wanted to be held. I was torn on what to do. 1. I felt so guilty that this happened 2. I didn't want to run to the ER for no reason 3. I was by myself and at this point it was bedtime for the kids and Phil was in the air on his way home. I did some quick research on the internet and it said that it is very common to see burn in the ER on babies. 60% of the cases are burns. You should go immediately if they had burned their extremities or burns over more than 10% of the body etc. etc. So I made the decision to bring him in. All the while he is in the back seat screaming and Emma in turn is screaming for him to be quiet and how bad he is! I'm telling ya, I was ready to have a breakdown.

Our little trip to the ER was interesting. I texted Phil and told him where we were and what had happened. I got to the ER at 6:45 pm Phil arrived at 8 pm. We did not get in to see a doctor until 8:45 pm, and I was out of there at 9:30 pm. When I got called into the room I knew it would be a while since we had already been in the waiting room for 2 hours. I told Phil to take Emma home, as she needed to sleep for school today. Plus today is picture day! Perfect right....dark circles, bags..all for picture day.
While waiting in the ER alone the kids got SO bored. I don't blame them. Quite honestly so was I. They were playing with those candy machines they have....you know the ones that shoot out a child size handful of M & M's for a quarter. When Ethan say them he pointed and said "mmmmmmmmmm please?" It was so cute. They did end up getting some when daddy arrived! I had brought a sippy for Ethan but in trying to get out the door I did not bring anything for Emma. When we got there and she saw his sippy she wanted a drink.....OF COURSE! I told her I did not have one. She said well I will just drink from the water fountain. NO! NO WAY! I was not about to let her drink from a dirty water fountain in the ER of a hospital.....GROSS! She probably leave there with 1o different diseases! YUCK! So when I told her no, she says to me....."If I don't get something to drink I will probably die!"....yes this is what I deal with on a daily basis! So I looked at her and said "well I guess it's a good thing we are at the hospital then!" Evil I know...but it shut her up...and I know that of course she really wasn't going to DIE from not having a drink for an hour! She did get some gingerale out of the soda machine when daddy got there though.
The of course, Ethan was not crying anymore....it's like they see the Emergency Room sign and then all of a sudden Hallelujah they are healed! Because he was doing good, he began goofing off. Climbing chairs trying to jump off, running away, trying to escape every time the door opened. They staff comforted me, in saying that they usually do stop crying once they get there.

Anyways so Phil took Emma home, and we saw the doctor. He said that Ethan had second degree burns on his fingers, but the skin was in tact and that was good! They did not do anything to it as they knew that babies often unwrapped a dressed hand. They also like to eat things that are on their fingers such as Neosporin. He told me I could sneak it on his fingers at night, but other than that it was good I brought him in but he was OK. Thank God.

The nurse was so sweet too. She gave Ethan the cutest little teddy bear to bring home with him. It was so nice of her. She was saying how much of a flirt he was and how cute he was and the next thing I know she brings him the bear. It was so nice of her.

Now to really make me feel like as ass. Though they said it was going to be cold last night it only got down to 52 degrees! The house was warm when we woke up w/o the fire.

So I have guilt for him getting burned, I feel stupid because it wasn't even that cold (for NY standards) and i went to the ER and will probably have a HUGE bill for them to look and say ....he's ok. Don't get me wrong I am glad it wasn't serious....I just always beat myself up over these things. This will be the most expensive Teddy Bear Ethan will ever get! But we will always have Teddy to remind us of his first trip to the ER. And sadly, I don't think it will be the last!

I just kept saying that I wanted to be at the hospital today (to visit the new baby) just not for a visit like this!

My doctors appointment was cancelled yesterday because my doctor was delivering a baby. I have to go today instead....finish packing...oh yah and pack all the kids clothing for next week. What? I didn't tell you? We are going with Phil on Monday to Massachusetts for the week so that we can go visit the new baby. Phil has a job out there and this way work will pay for the gas, since he is working! I will not be home until 6:30 pm on Sunday so there is lots to do today. Thankfully tomorrow is vacation!!!

Catch Up

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In two days I am going on vacation! YIPPEE! I am so excited, but also nervous....I have to fly...I don't like flying! I know it will be ok, I just hate the thought of being way up there in the air, and no where to go but down! EEK!

On a happier note, I will be going to see a friend of mine from the Navy days! I haven't seen her in 6 years, in fact I wasn't even a mom last time we saw each other. A lot happens in 6 years.

We are going to be attending the Women of Faith conference which should be lots of fun. I can't wait. It's my first vacation without my kids. I will miss them so much, but this is MUCH needed. I am with them all the time, and I have barely gotten a break since I delivered my bouncing baby girl 5 1/2 years ago.
I think I need to make a habit of this....at least once a year. Just to get away, nothing to worry about, I get to sleep through the night....Oh Happy Day!

I am still awaiting news from my SIL. She went into labor yesterday, but not enough to get things going. The baby was in a little bit of distress (low fluid, and low heart rate) so she needed to be induced with Pitocin. I feel bad, cause I hear that Pitocin is Satan himself! She was only 2cm and having contractions every 10 mins at 6 pm yesterday. Right now if she hasn't delivered yet, she will have been in labor for at least 13 hours. I don't envy her. They say you forget the pain of delivery and that may be true when thinking about conceiving another, but when you hear someone close to you is in labor..you can call up those feelings all to well.

Today I have a doctor's appt at 12:10. This is my follow up to be sure that I am doing ok after loosing the baby. Emotionally I feel good right now. I still have my ups and downs but really I think it's my hormones. I was watching a show yesterday called "The Doctor's" They were saying that after you deliver a child your body's hormones are so crazy that it closely mimics what you go through in menopause. They said that you have high levels of estrogen and progesterone and once you deliver your levels begin to drop, some more rapidly than others. Though I did not carry my child full term, my hormones are still haywire. They will be more normal once I get my cycle back. I am now reconsidering whether or not I should go back on the pill. I am thinking perhaps I could just be careful the next few months. If I chart my ovulation I should be ok. I just don't want to be pregnant in Florida. I also don't want to have to go off the pill and wait to try. It would be nice to jump right into it! ;o Plus this new insurance DOES NOT cover birth control of any kind. Going price for the pill I was on generic...was around $140 a month. That's a lot of money to pay to be protected for a couple of days.


Well I should go get moving. It is nearing 8 o'clock and there is lots to do here before I leave for the doctor's including showering. Who knew as a mom, showering would be so difficult? I know I will miss this once they are grown though. So I will try my hardest to appreciate the little hands grabbing at my legs all the time saying "up, up." All too soon, this will pass.

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